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hi

Haven't take a photo for more than month now, haven't show anything new for few months. I'm not lazy, i'm just trying to make my life complete with people, love, trying to make money, sport.
Anyway, i'm planning to do much this year, especially with this naked people project. But you know, time will show. Plans are nothing, when it comes to collaboration with other humans and weather.

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this winter is fucking endless, and i'm craving for colors. i wanna yellow fields and green karpathian mountains, azure sky and bright light. i'm so tired of snow.

calling out Svarog: фото

calling out Svarog

I'm so lucky to have a friend like this. I can say "Hey, lets go, burn snow today, make some photos!" And we wander together, all day, in dense forest, looking for magical places, thinking about details of our future movie. That's nice to have friend with so similar views, ideas, same way crazy as you are.  

Sorry for bad quality video,  photos will be ready on Monday, or Tuesday.

about childhood, memories and good movies.

Hardly slept at nights last week, was re-watching Tarkovsky's movies again and again, crying like a little baby. I have no idea why his pictures works like this to me, i guess this is because of all nature he show, all the beauty. I constantly feel, how he loved every little branch, grass, every rock, every color, light, wind. Every movement is so beautiful.

It all keeps returning me to my childhood. Crazy clock sound was waking me up early morning, before sun comes up. I was 5-6-12-15 years old then. Grandpa gave me few minutes, while grandma was preparing food for us so i could lie in warm bed, trying to switch on my little sleepy brain. Than coming out, feeling cold fresh air, fog around, coming into garage, which always smelled like gasoline. I was going to fishing with my grandpa a lot. He loved taking me with him, because i was quiet (and you have keep your mouth shut, if you wanna catch something). The opposite reason was, why he hated taking my brother with him - noisy little kid.

Grandpa grew up, when there was a war. He was to small to join army and adult enough to remember all his killed friends, how german army walked near they house, day and night and  day, ground was shaking because of the weight of giant machines. Also he remembers russian army. Their father (my great grandfather) left his family, his wife alone, with three kids, in the middle of the war, went to Europe. Then came back, when war was over, with some venereal disease. I am actually using a surname of this courage, strong woman, my great grandmother. She had Persian roots, that's why my father, when he was young, looked like Freddie Mercury.
Few years ago, when i still speaking to my father, we used to sit and talk all day, all night. He was retelling me stories his father told him. I was taping it on dictaphone, i still have them all. They all are waiting for their time.

Nature, was always so beautiful and grand. That's sad, because i'm starting to feel its majesty less and less.
Something is changing in my head, but i'm still trying to seize this feelings. This is why i love sea so much, i can't swim, and i'm afraid of water, and this feeling of something big can't leave me, when i'm watching waves. Starting to image the size of the sea. Or walking on frozen lake, knowing there's 6-7 meters of coldest water under 20 centimetres of ice.

Also i wanted to show you photos my friends Katya and Anya Shulga are making. They live in Saint Petersburg. More on their Flickr

    PHOTOS AREN'T MINE! All these pictures was made by my talented friends, more HERE

i'm here, again / Maya Deren

If someone haven't seen Maya Deren's films yet, you really should guys, immediately! It's pure inspiration, also i like fact, they didn't have computers, but every surreal piece look so great. It only shows, that doesn't matter what equipment you have, your head is only thing that matters! Your head and your ideas! I can't wait, to start making our short movie about monsters and nightmares.

Also i'm happy person again, thanks to my pills. Going to make grown up portfolio in couple weeks and will burn some wood/make some photos again this weekend. 

Small video from last time we were trying to set snow on fire. My hand is very diffident.

fire in the winter wood

    Internet eats my blue color a little bit.